10 years too fast

Can you believe the calendar says August... of 2013?? It's almost depressing. I remember when the week before Christmas was a painfully slow process. Then in high school, detention class dragged on for what seemed like an eternity. All I wanted to do was graduate, move on, and be an adult.

Silly me.

I miss being a kid with no responsibility, You know, when hard decisions consisted of what color binders you wanted for school or what POGS to play. Good times.

 

Ahh.. the 90's.

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It's sick to think I graduated 10 YEARS ago! I grabbed my diploma and hopped on a plane across the country as fast as I could. The friends I grew up with (who were closer to me than my own family) are complete strangers. Hell, the friends I have now are almost strangers since I became a mom. Oops. But seriously, you don't realize how precious time is until years later.

My advice to all the youngin's out there:

Stop growing up so damn fast.
Ignore drama.
Be a kid.
Live life.
Be happy.

I'm Movin On

 

2013 Motto

"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself."

 - George Bernard Shaw

 
This year is all about transformation. Why? I'm going to be a mom. That changes everything! It's an exciting and scary feeling at the exact same time. I mean how am I supposed to be a good mom when I have so much "baggage"? You would think I'd be over things that happened 5, 10, or 15 years ago, but I'm not. I've subconsciously enjoyed torturing myself for years. You would think I would have a handle on my anxiety more so than I do, but I don't.
Well, enough is enough.
 
In order for me to have a great marriage, be a good mom, and maintain relationships with family and friends, I need to LET GO of shiz. I need to work on my anxiety. I need to live life to its fullest.
That's right. No more anger. No more resentment. No more fear.
I can't change the past and I can't worry about the future either.
 
I'm very thankful for music. I love all kinds of music, especially country.
Country music can be personal. I can relate to songs. There's a story behind them, a meaning... there's passion. And every now and then, I hear a song that inspires me, like last night. 

My husband bought me the Rascal Flatts CD for Christmas. Yes, I still use CD's. My iPod was recently stolen from my unlocked car thank you very much. It's fitting that I stumbled upon this song as I was driving home. I posted the lyrics for those who don't like country music. If you're in a tough spot in your life, I dedicate this song to you.
 
 

Rascal Flatts - I'm Movin On

 

Lyrics

 

"I'm Moving On"

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on

 

Lyrics

 

 

 

Are there any songs you connect to right now?

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

Walking and talking

So a few things...

1. I'm one of those people who hate exercise. Sorry folks, it's true.
I don't like the pain, the effort, or the time requirement.
Now what I do like is going for walks with my girls. It's a kill two birds with one stone type deal. Nice easy cardio and time with 2 of my favorite ladies.
This is all part of my new "social plan" which I'll explain later. One word. Anxiety.
I'd like to high five it in the face if I could *smack*

Oh.. I forgot my camera so I had to rely on my "trusty" Blackberry. I actually like this picture.
I still want an iPhone though.
As for the weather..It's cold here and supposed to snow tonight. Woohoo!!
I think I'm the only one who's excited about that..

Bundled up and ready to go.

2. I've been asked a few times about my blog.. meaning the theme and audience.
So here are my answers after discussing it with these ladies.
-This blog is for women.
-It's a journal about life.
-There's no niche. It's about everything and anything.
-It's about my past and current struggles with depression and anxiety.
-It's about joyful events with friends, my husband, my pregnancy, and eventually with our baby.
-It's about the things I love yet have no talent for like fashion, make up, art, and crafts.
-It's a way for me to explore more about myself.
-There's no judgement, only acceptance.

So there you have it.

3. The other thing I've been thinking about is my career and where I want to go. It's frustrating at times but I like to think everything happens for a reason and one day, I'll figure it out.

4. I'm seriously falling in love with this iPad (it's my husbands) and really want one of my own.
Like I said before, Christmas is around the corner... That or I may just claim this one. Mouhaha.

5. On a final yet happy note, my new D bra's are getting too small. HA! If you had small tata's your whole life and always wanted bigger ones, you would understand. Yes, I get excited about my boobs. So what?

6. I just had to add one more thing. This baby is moving like CRAZY!! I mean.. wow. Feels like I'm on a rollercoaster.. I don't like rollercoasters.. well.. the ones that go upside down or really fast.. so I guess the majority of them.

That being said.. I'm off to bed. He. That rhymed.

I'm Batman

First off...

You ever have one of those days where you have a meltdown?
You know, the kind where your sleeve is covered with tears and there's piles of kleenex.
No? Me either. I mean that sooo did not happen today.
Ok... maybe a little.. but I'm going to blame it on pregnancy for 3 reasons.
1. Sore hips.
2. Stretching ligaments. Ouch.
3. And the worst...hormones. I blame it all on the hormones.

Now that I've shared that bit of information... I've had a pretty good weekend.
*Today is Week 21. Starting to feel the baby move more which is pretty neat.
*We bought this amazing onesie today. Isn't it adorable!?

I'm Batman.

*I finally set up Google Friend Connect. It's now easier to join my blog :)
*Finally bought some batteries for my camera. No more Blackberry! See picture above.
*I'm starting a fun new challenge in November!
I will write about this soon but it's called "The New ABC Challenge" 


Well... That's all I got for you today.
Have a great sleep. Goodnight.
 
 
 

Check this out peeps!

I just started blogging and it's all I keep thinking about! Is that normal? I think so.. I hope so. Oh well. It's exciting and fun.

Here are some fun pics for the nights.
Excuse the mess.. It's been one of those days.. well weeks.. either way it's Friday night and I'm not lifting a finger.
              


Umm. Whatcha doin?

What can I say, he loves to snuggle!

Anyways, I'm trying to spice up my blog. See above. Seriously though. Bare with me peeps... I'm still learning. This would probably be easier if I had a mentor. (Volunteer?) Well I guess I need to figure it out on my own.. I don't mind. It's quite fun stalking other blogs. That's right. I'm stalking you.

This is my list of what I need so far:
1. Content - Good content.. duh.
2. Followers - Mention me! :)
3. Advertising and Sponsors - Free advertising for now. Seriously, can't go wrong with that.
4. Guest bloggers (fashion, make up, nutrition, fitness, etc)
5. Lastly... I reeeeeaaaally need... ok... want a new template! I love Melissa Rose Design's stuff. Hubby, you payin attention? Christmas is around the corner. Love you.

Like I said above, I've been stalking catching up with two of my favorite blogs.. so naturally, that means I'm going to share them with you.

Living in Yellow
Girl is beautiful, super hilarious, and so interesting. If you love Guiliana Rancic, she's your girl. That and wine.
Erin: If you love wine as much as you say you do, you really need to plan a trip to Kelowna, BC next summer. It's worth it and I will personally give you a tour. Lucky you!
- She's giving away a $20 store credit to Shop Genesis. See here and other contests.

Perception is Everything
This is a new blog I've recently started following and I can't get enough of her posts. I absolutely love her dog Weiser. Soooooo cute!
- Enter to win a variety of stuff! See here

You will thank me later.

PS - I really want to add some pictures to promote their blogs but I'm not sure if I'm allowed!? Feedback please!

Don't forget to follow me! :) Pinterest, twitter, or by e-mail.

Weekend Recap!

Friday
I entered a contest on a blog I follow for a premade blog design (I oh so need it) *cough*PICK ME*cough* I think it would be a great way to boost my blog!

I found the contest on Living in Yellow which is one of my favorite blogs out there. You can find the contest here http://www.livinginyellow.com/2012/10/if-you-blog-you-will-love-this.html

Melissa Rose Design offers some really great blog templates and add-ons. You can find her stuff here http://www.melissarosedesign.com/

Anyways, moving on....
On my way home from work, I noticed my odometer and for some reason felt the need to take a picture of it. I mean, how often do you notice this stuff?

 

Saturday

We got our new furniture delivered! YAY!

This might not seem like a big deal but looking for a table that both my husband and I like has been a two year process. Same with the couches.

Plus we couldn't pass up no tax, free delivery, and a REALLY good price!

The couches are awesome because the end units are gliders as well as recliners... which make me a very happy pregnant lady :)

 

 

With the middle down and Cosmo posing

 

TABLE!!!!!!!!

There is a leaf in the middle for a 6 person table :) We use the extra 3 chairs at the breakfast bar.

 

Random cuteness for the day

Cosmo guarding my niece's Girl Guide cookies

 

Comet being... well... comet..  

 

 

 

AND... SUNDAY

TODAY IS 20 WEEKS!



My best friend got married :)

To my best friend Reina on her wedding day.  September 23th, 2012.

 

Reina has been one of my best friends since we first met in 2005. She was my Maid of Honor when I got married last year. Unfortunately, I missed her wedding day due distance and other factors. With that said, I felt the need to write a little something for her special day.

A few words to describe Reina: loud, outgoing, and caring. These are the reasons why I love her as my best friend. She has always been there for me; through the really bad and really good. She has never turned her back on me. She never gave up on our friendship when times were insane (example: my wedding). And she has never betrayed my trust. I’m lucky to call her my friend.

Reina: We were both in rough places when we first met. For the past 7 years, we have gone through life’s journey together as friends and watched each other grow into responsible adults. You have become so mature, determined, passionate, and most importantly your heart has continued to grow. You found an amazing man, got engaged, started University, started a photography business, and are now getting married!  I want to tell you that I am proud of you.

Chuck: You make my best friend the happiest I have ever seen her. All I can ask of you is to continue to make her laugh, smile, and love her unconditionally.

My advice to you both

Life is short; enjoy the simple things

Communicate with each other

Be honest with one another

Surround yourself with positivity

Lastly: don’t forget about me J

Congratulations to the both of you! <3

 

 

September 11th

11 years. Wow.

I will start off this blog by saying my thoughts are with everyone who has lost a family member, friend, or co-worker on this devastating day. A big thank you to the firemen, police officers, paramedics, and anyone/everyone who risked their life and health to help those in New York.